Forgetting to love

Hi Blog Land.

I am having a bit of trouble getting my characters to fall in love, or to display “real” love…between “real” people. I don’t know if this is because my relationships have been precarious, or if it’s because I am currently riding on a different wavelength from my partner. We are going through a nasty hump, but it’s nothing to be dramatic about. We are both aware of it and just allowing each other to express the apathy that comes after being with someone for over six year. Ugh, you smell! Ugh, walk faster! Ugh, ugh, ugh! You know what I’m talking about; trivial situations that don’t really mean anything. Or at least don’t really amount to anything that means we are horrible people. Passive aggressive, yes. Weird, yes. Unwilling to grow up, definitely.

My poor characters meet in high school, and they have a child during their last semester. Although I know someone who’s gone through this situation –what I’m really having trouble is, getting into the mind of my male character. Why? Because he also will also enlist in the army. I have interviewed two veterans in this process, and quite frankly the military experience is a sensitive subject. Aside from there being a lot of different titles in the Army, there are also some topics that were really uncomfortable for some of my subjects. I wonder if this is the character I must let go of. It hurts me to say this, but he might be. Or maybe I can work more on my lead character, and focus on him afterwards. Right now, they’re not gelling.

They always end up in some argument in my head, or some dramatic situation that causes my character to do something extreme, which frankly doesn’t fit my current style.

Maybe I’m afraid to go there.

Well, we’ll see where it goes. If you have any good suggestions about the development of love – please share. I have a good idea of my experiences, but sometimes it’s good to get some feedback outside of my personal circle. Ugh, this feels like the time my male acting teacher stood in front of class and asked me to imitate his sexy walk. Apparently, I sucked at being a sexy woman. My life!


Back to people watching and eavesdropping.


The Passive Aggressive Ones Make for Interesting People

You know what’s really interesting? Passive agressive people.

Here are things I notice about passive aggressive people that fascinate me: 

1.) They pretend to be okay, but the twitching of the eye gives them away.

2.) They like to talk about what’s bugging them, and make it seem like it’s not bugging them. You can tell usually because they tend to repeat words like, “I know!”, “U-huh”, and “You are so right.”

3.) They smile a lot when they are uncomfortable.

4.) When you come up to them, they look away and walk to the other side of the room.

5.) They usually show their aggression through small bursts of violence like: throwing a pencil on a table, letting a door slam shut, swinging their hair so it hits you in the eye as they walk away, interrupt your conversation…etc. etc. etc.

…Usually it seems like they are seconds away from imploding. Especially when they are interacting with others. It’s quite a show to watch. Quite a show. I enjoy P.A. People. They are too fun.